If I’m being honest, I have no idea what I’m about to write right now, but I’m just going with the flow. I just feel like it’s time for an update on how this summer has been going both for all you lovely people who read my blog and also as a reflection for myself so I have something to look back on years from now. So here goes nothing.
This summer has been a wild rollercoaster ride and I have loved every second of it. If you know me, you know I love adventure and the unknown and everything about this summer is that. I have had the privilege to explore so much of St.Louis alongside some pretty cool people. This week has been really rough for personal reasons, but being the optimistic I am, I try to find the positives every day. The positives of the week despite what I’m going through have been getting to talk with some sweet friends that I haven’t talked to in a while, go to the aquarium and a cute restaurant with my roommate, and get a new ear piercing today! I have never felt so loved and thankful for the people in my life as I have this week. I feel like the luckiest person in the world to have so many close friends I can pick up the phone and call on a whim crying my eyes out and they pick up and talk me through my struggles. What more can a girl ask for.
Besides this week being a tough one, this summer has been an amazing experience. I absolutely love my job at the hospital and am actually so sad for it to end in just 4 short weeks (ah, so crazy!). The first few weeks of the internship was a huge learning curve naturally and a difficult transition, but now I feel so much more comfortable on my unit and with my coworkers. I love my unit and I feel so blessed to finally be working with the patient population I want to be with (pregnant mommas!). It’s such a nice change of pace from nursing school and it’s truly a glimpse into what my life will be like very soon. I am hopeful I can get a job in labor and delivery when I graduate, but we will see what God has planned for me. I have grown so much in just 6 short weeks and the person I was on day 1 and the person I am now is just completely different. I am so thankful for my amazing nurse mentor along with all the other healthcare professionals on my floor who have done so much for me!
It’s bittersweet to think about leaving St.Louis already, but I am thankful for the time and amazing experiences I have been able to have here. It’s funny thinking about the beginning of this year and how much was up in the air. I was applying to so many internships and I was so anxious to just know which ones I would be accepted to. It was a stressful time submitting applications, interviewing, and waiting. After my first rejection I remember crying on my bed and feeling so hopeless. But I knew there were so many other opportunities out there and so I got over myself and kept hoping and trusting. Then the rejections just kept coming, but finally St.Louis said yes. They wanted me. And now I can’t imagine being anywhere else. Everything that has happened to me this summer, the good and the bad, are all for a reason.
And now as I sit in the same position once again, having no clue where I am going to get a job, I know I’m going to end up exactly where I need to be and I trust God is going to work it all out perfectly. We can try to write our own story and it’s easy to want to control our life, but letting God write our story turns out so much better! Don’t think I have it all together because I’m writing this. I’m honestly an absolute mess right now. But I have faith and even when I don’t have faith I pray He will give me faith and help me to trust in His plan for my life.
Honestly, this is not where I expected this blog post to go, but here we are. So much has been going on for me lately and sitting down and writing this is a good way to reflect and slow down a bit. Growing up is scary and real life is hard, but it’s an adventure and I’m ready for this adventure called life.
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